SOMEWHERE

Somewhere deep in my heart,


I can feel a burning hearth.



I do not know who to blame,

But I often feel the winds of pain.



Sometimes pain is hard to endure,

For how long will I fight it, I am not so sure.



All I can blame is a false expectation,

A ray of false hope, which created this situation.



I think and think, I think in vain.

All I feel are the winds of pain.



I often hear you knock on my door,

I often feel your heart is pure.



Pure or impure, now I do not know.

Whenever I open the door, you never show.



Was it you who hugged me tight?

Wasn’t it you whom I always saw with my sight?



Do I see you, or is it an illusion?

LOL  I know it is not you, then why this confusion?



I wait and wait, I wait in pain,

I see all my efforts in vain.



I often question why you left?

But then why do I ask, for you were never there, more so in the times of test.



I do not want to miss you anymore.

Yet I think only about you, why, I am not sure.



Once I did desire you.

Once you were one of those chosen few.



I now can see,

My desire never deserved me!



Now I can see,

I and you were never meant to become “WE”.